Excruciating Agony: My Fight Against the Enigmatic Suffering of Cluster Headaches

It was a gloomy weekday morning in the autumn of 2016. I was working as a teacher, trying to settle a new group of students, when a sharp pain bloomed behind my right eye. This was followed by rapid shocks, like electric shocks. As the school day progressed, the discomfort eased and then came back with greater intensity. Four times that day I left a colleague with worksheets and ran to the school bathroom to soak my face with cool water. I took aspirin, but the agony remained unbearable.

The attacks returned frequently that autumn, and again in the spring, soon forming an annual cycle. The autumn months were the worst, then the late winter. I could anticipate the routine: a warning sensation in the shower, early pangs on the train, full-on pain in the classroom by mid-morning. In 2019, a doctor finally referred me to a neurologist and I was diagnosed with cluster headache disorder.

Cluster headaches often start with severe pain around one eye that persists up to several hours.

Approximately one in 1,000 people suffer by the condition, and males are more frequently affected. Cluster headaches usually begin with abrupt, excruciating agony focused on one eye that reaches its peak within a short time and lasts for up to three hours. Attacks come in clusters, every day or multiple times a day, and are accompanied by red or watery eyes, drooping eyelids or face perspiration. I have the episodic form, which occurs in periodic cycles; some patients have continuous cluster headaches, characterized by the lack of extended pain-free periods.

What connects sufferers is the severity. One study scored the sensation at 9.7 10, higher than bone fractures or other conditions. A separate discovered 64% of cluster patients experienced thoughts of self-harm amid bouts; the number dropped to four percent when they were not in pain.

Val Hobbs, 74, a long-term sufferer from Pembrokeshire, finds this understandable. Her episodes started when she was a toddler. “I would hurl myself on the floor and hit my head. That was put down to being a difficult child,” she says. Her condition deteriorated through her youth. Alcohol in her adolescence, like several triggers, made things more intense. After drinking sherry at her school leaving party, she recalls hardly being able to see on the bus home.

Her relatives often mistook her attacks as intoxicated episodes. Understanding eventually came from her father and then from her partner, her spouse. “I was very lucky to find such an exceptional person,” she says. Hobbs found clerical work after relocating, but often hid her condition. She was fired from one job, in part due to time off during episodes. Her definitive identification came in the early 2000s at a specialist hospital.

Still, the failure to plan daily activities around unpredictable pain took its effect. She especially hated being unable to plan social events, being seen as unreliable as a colleague, and even having to be cared for by her family during the incapacitation caused by the worst episodes. “It robs you of the small liberties we don't appreciate until they're gone,” she says. She recalls obtaining tickets for a significant concert, only to have an episode inside a facility.


Headaches have been described across history. “The earliest account of headache originates from the ancient civilizations in 4000BC,” write experts in a publication on the topic. They linked the disease to an malevolent entity who afflicted his victims' heads.

Ancient medical records suggest unusual remedies for what some observers would describe as a migraine. In the middle ages, migraine was recognised as a separate condition, with therapies including bloodletting to other, more superstitious remedies.

It was a European physician who provided the initial detailed account of a cluster-type attack. In his writings, he speaks of a patient “afflicted with a very intense headache occurring and disappearing daily at fixed hours”.

Cluster headaches were only formally recognised by global medical committees in the late 1980s. From the 1960s to the 1990s, they were thought to be caused by a problem with a key artery that delivers blood to the brain. Prominent specialists in treating the condition note this.

In 1998, scientists published the findings of a study for which they had induced cluster headaches in patients and monitored the episodes in a imaging machine. The results, published in a prominent journal, showed activation of the hypothalamus, which is responsible for human circadian rhythm, when patients were in discomfort, and a deactivation when they felt better.

Despite such advances, identification remains slow. One man's attacks started in 1986 and felt like “a balloon being inflated behind my one eye”. GPs thought he had sinus problems; he underwent four surgeries before finally being diagnosed in recently, after a doctor researched his symptoms.

Neurologists say wait times in diagnosis and managing happen because patients are rarely seen mid-attack. “You're exhausted and depressed, but not in agony,” one says. He proceeds by ruling out other primary headache disorders, such as tension-type headache, before confirming the disorder. A detailed patient history is essential: on which part of the head do symptoms appear? For how much time? What season? Are there precipitating factors, such as certain foods? Certain features such as redness, sagging eyelids and stuffy nose help confirm the diagnosis. Once identified, patients may be referred to dedicated clinics. But many first go to A&E or are given inadequate therapies.

A charity trustee, 78, has suffered from cluster headaches for the majority of her adult life, although she hasn't had an episode since recent years. When she was in her twenties, she had her teeth extracted because dentists misinterpreted her pain. She believes dentists still need much more education. When a sufferer sought help from a charity, it was Chapman who responded. I remember calling a helpline during an attack in early 2021; a reassuring advisor guided me through oxygen treatment and medication until the attack passed.

National guidelines on management recommend that patients are offered high-flow oxygen therapy and/or a specific drug administered by nasal spray. No tablets or strong analgesics should be used. Preventive options include a blood pressure medication, which reportedly soothes the bouts of some individuals.

But consultant neurologists argue the official guidelines need revising to reflect a clearer treatment pathway and help general practitioners avoid incorrect prescriptions. For periodic patients, the treatment window is critical: “The length of the bout determines the treatment.” Short cycles with infrequent attacks are handled with abortive therapy only. More prolonged or more intense periods require preventative medications such as certain drugs, sometimes combined with corticosteroids. Many patients also receive a greater occipital nerve block during a bout – an procedure into the area of the head where the pain is that reduces nerve activity.

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